The truth behind mental health

 Recently, I discovered that change can be very challenging. Especially when you want to change yourself to be a better version of yourself. I reckon that change can be quite intense because we are so used to our comfort zone. Therefore, I  strongly recommend that we let ourselves be patient with our own self. Because real change cuts deeper than just doing something differently. It means shifting habits, identities, and beliefs you have probably carried for a long time. Even when parts of you want to change, there's still  a part of you that thinks it is still safer sticking to your old ways- even if they're not good for you. WHY I CHOSE TO CHANGE MYSELF? That, my friend, is because I want a new change in my life. I am already sick of my old ways of doing things to myself. I want a new and fresh start. Of course, the past will still be part of me, but I think it has taught me a lot of lessons in life. And right now, I am ready for a change.  There are still days whe...

 A heavy rock behind my back, What shall I say? The chains all stack A deep,dark hole beneath the ground - With whom to walk,where none are found? I tried so hard to lift the veil, But to my horror, I still fail And why? The tears begin to stream... Why is healing just a dream? I took a step into the light, Yet numbness stayed, my closest knight. Why do these ocean eyes still cry? "It's fine", I said." The past's too high". An untold tale, yet to unfold, In scattered pieces, truths are told. But as I face what lies beneath, Am I just better left in grief or  better off broken? Written by Jocelyn Ng Shu Yee 

Oh, how I wish to go to space, Where stars and nebulae embrace. Beyond the skies, so vast, so deep, Where galaxies and comets sleep. Planets spinning, one by one, Dancing circles 'round the Sun. I dream of sights I’ve never seen, In hues of gold and deepest green. Are there aliens? I can’t say, But I would greet them anyway. With open heart and mind so wide, I’d take that interstellar ride. The stars, they twinkle — I’m in love, With Saturn’s rings and skies above. “Where are you, Neptune? Say hello!” “We’re here,” they chant, “we never go!” Oh, let me float where silence sings, Where time dissolves and starlight clings. A cosmic kiss, a breathless leap, Into a universe so deep. Let’s just pretend I touched the sky, And waved to Earth with tearful eye. The stars all shimmered in a line, As if to say, “You, too, can shine.

 I woke up with a sudden scare,  Drenched in sweat and silent tears.  Afraid of something dark, unknown,  While loneliness devours me whole. A fretful fear, one aching truth—  Oh, how I wish to draw a line.  But presto! Still, my heart resists,  For deep within, I fear all change. A single rose—so red, so bright—  Beneath its weight, my shoulders ache.  I wish I bore it all with grace,  So none would feel my heart as weight. With this condition, I must face,  No choice but lift my head with pride.  In the end, I weep, the pain runs deep—  A BPD warrior, soul and stride. Written by Jocelyn Ng Shu Yee 

 Woke up today with a tired mind,  Took the train with a sulky face.  Waited for the van, heart full of nerves,  Went to church — wore a smile with grace. They prayed for me, then sent me back.  It took a while to face the truth.  Step by step, and leap by leap,  I rose again — reclaimed my roots. Oh my God! I whispered low, Somebody just blessed me.  With a grateful heart, I breathed it in,  And welcomed it, gently. “One step at a time,” I told myself,  “It’s not as easy as it seems.”  But day by day, I’ll walk this path —  With burning hope and steady dreams. Written by Jocelyn Ng Shu Yee 

  4 a.m. — my dear sleep was compromised, I woke with a jolt, heart beating fast. Tried to drift back, But my thoughts ran wild, spiraling past. I turned to music, Grasped the tune, Hummed along, And let the rhythm fill the room. Oh, my sweet sleep, Where do you hide your grace tonight? I close my eyes, But my mind still circles, chasing light. 6 a.m. now — time to rise, "Come on, lady, don’t be shy." I breathe in deep, I soften the pace, Build myself up with quiet grace.

  Oh, how much more can I say, A piece that flows like a mighty sea Like a bird being set free, To be eternally unchained from this bondage. There’s a fire burning in my heart, Every heartbeat, every breath I took It is like filling my lungs with fresh air, Where, hence has my mind gone to? Breathtaking is sadness that does not last forever, Armed with a sword and a shield I fight this fight till my last breath, With every moment, day and night. All this light that shines so bright, It gives me hope when I am down in the darkest hole. Hand in hand together in combat, I shall win this tremendous battle.  Written by Jocelyn Ng Shu Yee